Tuesday, 5 October 2010

Altar boy

May naghamon sa akin-- magsulat daw ako sa posisyon ko sa RH Bill. Gusto nyang malaman ang political side ko.


Susubukan ko. Eto ang kwento.


Isa sa mga pinakamalapit kong kaibigan ay pari. Mabait. Radical. Maka-kalikasan. Maka-masa. Maka-mahirap.


Huli na nang malaman kong maka-babae din pala sya. Nabuntis ang isang church worker. Walang kasal. Walang suporta. Sampung taong gulang na ngayon ang bata.


Kailanman ay di namin napag-usapan ang tungkol sa anak nya, pero alam kong alam nyang alam ko.


Eto rin yata ang dahilan kung bakit maka-RH Bill din sya.


Kabarkada rin ng paring ito ang isa pang pari. Gwapo. Macho. At ang balita, malaki. Pero umalis na sya sa simbahan. Nakabuntis rin ng church worker. Pinakasalan nya.


Noong huli kaming magkita, tinanong ko sya tungkol sa nangyari.


"Di naman kasi tinuro sa seminaryo na masarap pala," sagot nya sabay tawa.


Noong nasa elementarya pa lang ako, naging altar boy ako sa isang simbahan sa Davao City.


Dito ako namulat sa sex. Dito ko nakitang inabuso ng isang pari ang kasamahan ko. Di naglaon, ako naman ang naging biktima nya.


Di naman ako natrauma. Nasarapan pa nga.


Pagkatapos ng kolehiyo, bumalik ako sa lugar kung saan minsan ay naging alagad ako ng Simbahang Katoliko. Pero hindi para magsimba. Bitbit ako ng baklang pari. Di nya ako nakilala. Ako yung altar boy na inabuso nya noon.


Dinala nya ako sa kwarto nya. Ganon pa rin ang ayos. Walang nagbago. Simpleng kama. Puting bed sheet. Aparador. May Krus pa rin. Banal.


Inumpisahan nya ang ritual. Di ako naghubad. Binuksan ko lang ang zipper ko. At noong isusubo na nya, pinigilan ko sya. Tumingala sya. Tiningnan ako.


Ako naman, nakangisi. Dinuruan sya sa mukha. Umalis.

32 comments:

mandayette #2 said...

winner kaayo mam. anti-hypocrisy

DSM said...

first up, i've been waiting for your updates. i have read all your posts. I'm a big fan. we're both from dakbayan sa dabaw.

second, woah on the spitting. that was brave and he totally deserved it.

pls... pls write more :)

Jacky said...

Isulong ang RH Bill!
As always, I love the way you told your story. Straightforward and funny!

orally said...

winner kaayo!
la mala educacion comes to mind.

Melanie said...

Nakakaloka ang ginawa mo kay Father... Tambling!

blagadag said...

what's wrong with being a gay priest? is he not entitled to have a blow job?

mel beckham said...

Intriguing! Asa kaha na nga parokya para madagkutan ug kandila.

Momel said...

Wow. Mandaya Moore, if this really happened, then thank you for sharing this. I mean, shit, for real? I've always known there are faggots and pedophiles up there, but really? Two snaps in a circle, amen. Aside from that, I'm rather speechless over this whole episode, if you should know.

It was the spitting that I liked the most. Fuck you, priest. relout

Mu[g]en said...

Ooooh! Sarap naman ng nangyayari sa loob ng simbahan!

Anonymous said...

wow, that's pretty heavy stuff. lalo ngayong ang catholic church is under fire all over the world for those sexual abuse charges.

happy for you teh na walang masyadong naging negative impact sa iyo(?) pero i wonder about the others?

Dava said...

hahaha! grabeh.

Lasher said...

Bitaw, bitaw! Gadangag ra na sila! The Vatican City should be annihilated and the Catholic Church must be crushed. Enough with the hypocrisy and pakikialam with the government!

Thanks for sharing a very personal story, Mandaya. I did not expect that you was in the tough ten! Hehe.

By the way, Mandaya, please change my link's address in your blogroll to http://lasherations.blogspot.com.
Maraming salamat. More power!

rudeboy said...

Ang tindi ng post.

At gaya ng dati, ang ganda ng ending. Ibang klase ka talaga, Mandaya.

nOx said...

winner! tinalo mo si nora aunor teh!

john stanley said...

si ate mandaya ay sinamba sa simbahan.

ang ganda!

Ming Meows said...

dinuraan mo sya...laway ba yon o tamod? :)

pareho din pala tayong pinagsamantalahan. buti na lang nasarapan tayo kasi pag hindi, baka magkatrauma.

more power din sayo mandaya.

next time pag gusto ni father na magjerjer, sabihin mo bawal ayon sa calendar method.

Ms. Chuniverse said...

Why is the church making so pakialam about this RH Bill samantalang they're turning a blind eye sa mga abuses ng simbahan?

DAMASOS indeed.

Soltero said...

amff! mali ang religion na sinapian ko, walang ganyang mga eksena! ahahahah :P

joey said...

u only did what was right sa paring iyon ate!

That's what i hate about RC church being against RH bill, eh sandamakmak na kaparian ang kelangan ng proteksyon pag gumagawa non no? hahaha! They badly need that bill para walang ebidensya sa krimen haha!

How can you trust these people if hidden behind those crisp white holy capes are sexual predators and pedophiles?

Luv ur blog mama, keep on blogging! Dapat pala minsan pinepressure ka Janina! :D

All the best from Qatar,
Joey

Ronnie said...

Kalurkey si Father pero mas nakakalurkey ang ginawa mo. Dami talaga impokrito sa Simbahan, kala mo kung sinong malinis.

Anonymous said...

ang taray parang sine novela yung eksena ng duraan! hehehehe

Kiks said...

matagumpay na post, mandaya.

paverfull.

Kane said...

Mandaya,

Maldita ka (pala) !!!!!!

I guess, like the rest of the world, there are bad priests and good priests.

They are still human too, after all. Not gods.

I'm curious if you ever saw him again.

Kane

ikotoki said...

tarush!

jaguarpaw said...

just a reminder; RH bill is not about having sex randomly. it is abut responsible parenthood. thanks. ang asim ng ending pang pedro almodovar. thanks ulit! and yes that gay priest doesn't deserve a blow job. not within the premises of the church. madaming motmot sa kalapit na bayan. haha

Anino said...

Wow,saludo ako sa iyo!

Anonymous said...

im pro choice and pro life.. im for the rh bill gogo

Ryan said...

Fierce!

Anonymous said...

clap! mama i miss u!
-mrs.j

pgblik ko ng pinas promise mgkita na tyo! london na akez

quocksock said...

love it Mandaya! it's so Pedro Aldmodovar!

Stacey said...

Mandaya, you're a WINNER!

palma tayona said...

PANALO!

I haven't visited your blog for months, neither have I updated mine. Reading back through your entries, this has got to be one of the most powerful entries you've written.

Anti-Hypocrisy, as mandayette previously written.

:-)