Monday, 20 October 2008

Pahinga

Ayon na rin sa ilang comments sa aking huling post, kailangan kong i-assess ang relasyon namin ni Kulot.


Ayon kay Blagadag: "That gasul incident should teach you the first lesson on living alone. teach yourself the most basic like firewood gathering, gasul tank switching, and on to watch boys other than kulot. kung break, break. kung martyrdom, mag fact-finding mission ka uli. kung si kulot, wag kang pagpa stretch. relax ka lang. kung di mo kaya, rebonding na lang kayo uli ni kulot for the nth time."


Ayon kay Lyka: "Sana tinawag mo na lang si Fiona! Sige ka at maunahan ka ni Kulot. Good luck!"


Ayon kay Mel Beckham: "Ay, wala gihapon.. Parang reflex na talaga 'pag u need something done, si Kulot dayon ang first thing in mind. Think it over Ate M. 'wag padalos-dalos."


Ayon kay Ate Sienna: "Bakit kasi kailangan may mga ganung eksena na kapag dumating ang time na magkaroon ng babae sa eksena eh magiging factor yun ng pag-dadalawang isip sa relasyon nyo? kung mahal ka nya, bakit may ganung mga thought balloons? pero may dramang "priority ka pa rin"? consuelo de bobochina? so ano ka talaga for him, for the meantime na wala pa yung babaeng yun sa buhay nya?"


Hindi pala solusyon na may reserba kang tangke ng gasul to keep the flame burning.

Hindi pala solusyon na naandyan ang Kulot para magpalit ng tangke.

Linggo, hiwalay na kami ni Kulot.

26 comments:

Myk2ts said...

kaya mo yan ateh! ikaw ang idolo ng mga beki! gogogo

mel beckham said...

I wish u well Ate M..

Tristan Tan said...

Nalungkot naman ako sa post na ito. Be strong ate, be strong... ;)

Ming Meows said...

Welcome to the club!

Princhecha Fiona said...

Kayo din? Waaaahhh! =(


(sa comment ni Ate Sienna) ouch tinamaan ako dun, todong-todo.

aries said...

sure na ka ana mam?

but then, i'd still hope that will write about kulot and your relationship the same way you write about him before. wish ko lang din you'd be happy with the decision. mwahh

karon ra jud ko naka comment balik mam oy...

olan said...

Huh! Nakalungkot naman mandaya moore, Pero kung yan ang nararapat at kailangang gawin, tama ang ginawa mo. Mas masakit yun iniwan ka. Mabuti pa yung ikaw ang mang-iwan kasi alam mo kung hanggang saan ka mo kayang dalhin consequences ng pang iiwan mo. Tama lang yan. Goodluck M.

Mugen said...

Ikaapat ka na ngayong buwan. Sino kaya ang ikalima?

alimuom.atbp said...

sad... bakit ba puro kadramahan ang posts ng mga utaw lately (kasama na ako dun)...

in fairview, relevance ang lagi kong naririnig noong sinasabi nila about me and ram: "putulin na ang dapat putuling ugnay na gabuhok..." 'chos.

i'm sure with your intelligence, talents, beauty and grace, madami kang korona, i mean, loves na maiuuwi. malawak ang dagat, madaming isda. nandyan lang si Erebus sa tabi-tabi, naghahanap ng kapalit ni Dyesebel.

lovingly yours,
helen

Anonymous said...

Hi Mandaya, as cliche as it may sound I'm a super avid fan and a really share your sentiments.I have followed your love story with Kulot and I believe we have parallel thoughts and share similar stories. Kaya lang yung akin, natapos na months ago. Hay, hirap kalaban ng pechay. un lng. bow.

-jayaureus

Anonymous said...

Hi. This is my 1st time to comment here but I have been reading your blog since "1959". My take on the matter and regarding you and your life. Una, magaling kang writer. Marami kang napapasaya including me. 2nd, I want you to know that I wholeheartedly support your decision. 3rd. May Jason pa naman diyan. You deserve a better person. 4th, how do you mend a broken heart? -make it whole again by loving yourself first. 5th and last, isipin mo na lang na it is better to have loved and lost than to have not love at all.

Lyka Bergen said...

OMG! Trulala ba toh? Sad pero kung yan ang nakaguhit sa palad mo, wala ka ng magawa kundi tang-gapin ito.

Tanong lang: Sino ba ang umayaw?

Neneng_Praning said...

Hi ateng. share ko lang ang sabi ni joe d' mango: "Once you've packed your bags, you should never look back"

kaya yan.

Clark Can't said...

There's no greater power than the power of goodbye, Ate M.


Congrats!


;-)

blagadag said...

blame it to txting. kung walangtxt, di naman sana mahuhumaling si kulot sa txtmate nyang girl. ganyan din nangyari sa akin.

txt. namis-sent yung message ni bebeh kay honey nya. napunta sa akin. tawagin ba akong honey eh di namang yon angterms of endearment namin. honey ba ako na parang mantika na yata ang appeal ko sa katabaan ng tyan ko? ayun break.

but unlike madam mandaya, i reconcile with my bebe. awa na lang din kasi bata pa masyado yung umiiyak na bata. nag sorry naman sya tapos di raw sya papayag na mag break up kami. si nag make up na lang, pero distance relationship pa rin. but for sure, medyo nanlalamig na ako kay bebe. i relaized na mukhang sobra na naman ang emotions na na invest ko kay bebe. mahirap na baka magkahiwalay kami uli, ako naman ang masaktan kaya ngayon pa lang medyo 2 to 5 times an lang ang txt msgs per day na lang. tipid pa. bawiin na lang sa torjakan pag uwi ko uli after another year. grabe ang bhay bading na ofw. once a year lang ang kaligayan. buti na lang may part time ako sa isa dito. hahay.

madam mandaya, expand your horizon. you know that there so many fish in the ocean. mag pearly shells ka. punta ka sa city kung matigang ka. marami pang bagong ligo doon.

give more time to yourself. wa na stress, relak lang mam. i know masakit, pero kungminsan, after the pain, enjoyoble din ang kati. patorjak mam oy. daghan diha.

gani said...

Parang preemptive strike ang decision mo against something which may yet happen. But it's your life, your call. We may have a ringside view to your wonderful life with Kulot thru this blog, but there's more to it than meets the eye,I guess. Before all this, I think lots of people wish you well as a couple (and many still do), drawing inspiration from your life with Kulot. It may yet happen to them, too: finding their Kulot under the sun...There's something to be said about your decisiveness in this matter. I take comfort in that, as well as other blog readers who are faced with the same predicament. May we conduct our affairs with as much levelheadedness and integrity as you did. Hay naku, please do write on whenever you can. For our sanity. :)

Ate Sienna said...

sigurado ka na ba talaga, lola? baka naman kailangan nyo lang mag-usap ni kulotsky para maliwanagan ang lahat? baka kasi confused lang ang kulot kaya ganun ang mga dialogue. hindi kaya dapat eh mag-heart to heart talk muna kayo kung ano ba talaga ang gumugulo sa isip nya? baka nga talagang scared lang syang aminin sa sarili nya na baditch sya talaga. eh sabihin mo, hindi naman lahat ng baditch pa-girl. may baditch na mhin pa rin sa panlabas, girl lang ang puso. hindi naman masama yun. hindi masama ever ang maging gay. (mas masama kung hindi sya tutuo sa sarili nya.)

pero kung matigas pa rin syang go sya sa keps in the future, then siguro nga, it's time to say goodbye ngayon pa lang. kasi i-delay mo man, kung darating talaga, baka mas masakit pa.

basta ako, lola, preyowber lang kita lagi. sino man ang maging mahal mo habang-buhay (kulot or not kulot), yung tutuong liligaya ka na poreyber en eyber :)

Anonymous said...

lungkot naman ng ending nyo. pero di bale kaya mo yan. goodluck!

Luis Batchoy said...

this, too, shall pass ateng mandaya... Hugs and kisses from the batchoyan...wanna make higop a hot bowl? here, have one for sorrow...hang in there

Anonymous said...

I think it's because you have waited for Kulot to say the words that you wanted to hear (Assurance?)... But unfortunately, Kulot didn't say those words and then you just gave up.

It's not everyday that everyone gets a chance to experience an honest relationship like what you just had. Not everything we have is going to last forever, but at least we get a chance to enjoy what life has to offer even for just a while...

canmaker said...

sabi mo nga sa title ng entry mo..."PAHINGA"....siguro iyan talaga ang kailangan mo....take advantage sa pahinga mo....mag muni-muni, mag assess ng buhay-buhay kung saan ito patutungo, mag isa ka man o may kasama pa rin....good luck!

Anonymous said...

Ganyan lang ang buhay....Move on....Pag di ka nagmove on......ibig sabihin talo ka....When I was younger and was studying in college, I thought that life was built among friends we met and shared things along the way. But after graduation, I found out that we need to write and make our own stories in life.....Ganyan nga Mandaya, you chose to write those stories you have in life...And I must agree that you might need to write another story...A new story........Hmmmmmmmmmmmm............

bananas said...

may magpapakalbo!

im syor!
pramis!

kiel said...

mahigpit na yakaap sa 'yo, mandaya. kahit di tayo magkakilala, parang naramdamn ko yung sakit.

The Zen Bitch said...

very sorry & sad to hear this. my heart goes out to you. even if we don't really know each other. i feel your pain.

Empress Maruja said...

Kalungkot naman, Marse. I'm sure makakahanap ka ng mhintolang hihigit pa kay Kulot. In the meantime, magpa-spa ka. Tanggal lahat ng lamig I'm sure.